Got done chatting with a good friend. Great conversation. I think I am slowly rebounding now. As it has been put several times I need to consider the source of who said what they said.
It’s just easy for me to fall into this state of mind. More often then less. It sucks. It’s hard. And I can not believe I let the words of a ***** get under my skin like they did.

So slowly coming back to the surface…again….and I’m sure I’ll go under again some time in the near future.
Laying low for a while….re-inventing myself yet AGAIN. Don’t know how many times I have had to do this. ‘sigh’ but I need to find a better version of me and I need to do it soon because these mood things are driving everyone nuts and I know that.
So I’ll put on my weak smile and hopefully it will get bigger with a little time once more.

I want out.......

So on the brighter side of things (!)  :-)

I have tomorrow off! Working on getting WITH CHILD done. For good. And then off to be registered.

I'm pretty proud of myself for sticking through it and completing it.

And now to send off to SHRIEKFEST (as soon as they open this year's entries)

I wish all that do luck!! Let's get ready for some friendly competition!!!

Maybe I am a stressed out, over sensitive, fucked up in the head kind of guy. There are lots of reasons for it. Those who know me, know why.

Freedom of speech is awesome. And despite what pre-conceived ideas people have about me…I understand that and I respect both sides of the story. But when I get told I hate people because of what they do…it pisses me off. It’s your life, you do what you please. I may not agree with you, but that’s how opinions work. You have yours and I have mine. Just don’t tell me you know who I am and what drives me when A) i  did not and b.)you don’t know me.

Off of Facebook for a while until I figure out who the hell I am.

Concentrating on my screenplay WITH CHILD. That’s what I should be doing…fuck everyone and everything else.

What's next?

I'm not sure how many re-writes its gonna take on WITH CHILD to perfect this. I'm very happy with what I have. While not perfect....no first draft EVER is.....to me it the solidest thing I have ever written. Everything makes sense, no plot holes......some dialogue changes are needed, but I don't know how I can tighten it up anymore than it is. It's very short, very compact. Not a big cast, not a lot of settings. Hell, it's something I could film on a shoestring budget given some talented FX makeup and some cool camera tricks!

So this one is going off to some contests, that's for sure.

I contained my self really well on this one. No wild tangents, no weird scenes that are Lynchian as I call them....save for one small one that really is kind of out there...I will NOT remove it.

Since I love to write, I am diving straight into another feature screenplay just for the hell of it. Let's face it I'm never gonna sell anything.  VEA is back on hold because I think someone beat me to the punch on it...waiting to find out for sure before I continue with that one.

I'm going back to what I love. I'm opening the floodgates of my sick perverted mind and going back to the trash cinema movies that I grew up with and love so much. This will be the sickest, vulgarest, violent, bloody,  twisted,  vilest thing I have come up with. Going to the extreme with the next one.  Over the top violence, gore, beatings, sex, rape, be-headings, disembowelment, drugs, drinking, swearing, torture, more gore, revenge, revenge, revenge and revenge...all in a historical setting of the U.S.A.

Think the BABYCART series of films from Japan and you might get the idea.

First draft is in the bag

Well, I completed the first draft. Now on to the first re-write.

New post...guess I should!!

Just a new post to keep things alive over here.

I suddenly reverted back to using tumblr......created it, used it for a while and then stopped. And now I'm back over there.....I don't know why!!

So check me out over there because right now I'm kind of going crazy (!) (just kidding) and the REALLY crazy stuff goes over there!!


http://neuroticscreenwriter.tumblr.com/


Screenplay is going good. Creepy scary and dark. Not much else to say....go over to tumblr and read some snippets from WITH CHILD and gaze and the weird vintage pics that have inspired me.....kind of took the
Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children approach on this screenplay.....only in the aspect of inspired by creepy pics.....not story!!!